Makings of Me- Redemption

October 4, 2020

Today I’m feeling alone, like nothing matters. Today I’m feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders and I mean I’m really feeling it. Feeling the pain of it all, all my bad decisions, choices, and turns in life, how it affected others and damaged the one relationship that matters most to me. Today I’m feeling like a failure like everything I’ve ever done wasn’t good enough. I’m at a crossroad with myself. I’m feeling angry and disappointed with no one but me. How do I forgive myself for all the wrong I’ve committed, all the hurt people, and lives my actions shifted. How do I come to terms with the horrible person I was. How can I ask for forgiveness, forgiveness I have yet to give myself. I have no idea where to start, but I do know today all these feelings of regret is more than enough fuel for my changes. Enough to ensure I’m the best version of me I can possibly be now and forever. Today I’m feeling the beginning of redemption, of evolution, progress of inner growth. Today I’m feeling an REBIRTH!